I've neglected my blog terribly but it's just bad form to apologize yet again for my absence so I won't. The masses haven't staged a riot demanding a response but I wanted to check in.
Life is good. Still living with the Brit and twin sister, our own little dramedy occurring daily. She cooks all the time which makes both me and the Brit really lucky. But he's truly an understanding man, dealing with twins. It's a hell of a lot less glamorous than one might think.
I am still creating, doing my best to keep my eye on the prize, whatever that is. I'm directing a short film, something I'm really proud of, a tribute to someone incredibly special to me. It's still a work in progress so I won't say much. There's things I hope it will do for me but whether it happens or not, I'm loving the creative outlet it's providing.
I'm auditioning again and the excitement of each time my manager calls and I get to audition outweighs the crushing disappointment when the phone doesn't ring. It's still there but I try to drown my sorrows in my latest script or Trader Joe's Cab, depending on the role and my connection to it. It's taken me awhile to have the courage to talk about acting again, which is weird because it's not THAT kind of acting.
I think I've been worried that people won't take me seriously as a writer, that they won't understand how committed I am to my writing. There is a serious prejudice against actors. But acting is part of me and so is writing and I intend to embrace them both, until I have to choose (again). The minute someone offers me a writing job I'll bid acting sayanora. And vice versa. But neither one of them will ever be out of my life for good, that I know.
The writing is good. Even great on some days. I've written two things this year that I'm truly proud of. One was ambitious, a sci-fi sort of dramedy, an entertaining story with issues I'm still working out. The other, I think is my best writing yet though it may not play that well in the Bible belt. Whether either one is something Hollywood will scoop up remains to be seen. I'm not great at knowing "commercial." I generally just write what I like. I also have several new scripts in the cooker and a whole lot of down time for the holidays so I'm hoping in the next two months to have another few completed scripts.
I don't have a steady day job which is at times both freeing and terrifying. I'm not lucky enough to have a trust fund but I've been careful and I do a lot of freelance writing work. Some of it is referrals, some of it I find on my own but I enjoy it because I'm constantly utilizing the same writing skills I've used to write scripts. Even if I'm writing a blog or press release, I'm colloborating, there's an audience, an objective. I think it's only helping me grow as a writer.
Now the year's almost over. In the career world, it's been a smaller year, less obvious victories to celebrate but I'm grateful. Grateful for residuals. Grateful for the people in my life, old and new friends. Grateful for travels and adventures I've had. I'm grateful for the freedom and time I've had to explore whims, avoid convention and continue following this crazy path. It's not always (ever?) easy but it's the only thing I know. I look forward to next year, to seeing where my creative muse takes me. If you're a faithful blog reader, or have just stopped by to check in, I hope you'll stop back by and see what's shaking in the New Year.
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